Chapter. 7 ” And it hits Hard.”

d44c1ec948ab0bd774c058db13e3ac93 wallpaper_storm_animaatjes-28 lok There was no stopping the upcoming few days for Kaleigh. She was beginning to feel more and more anxious about all her upcoming projects and exams. She had a lot of partners she was working with but no time to meet with them as she worked almost everyday after school. She was doing all she could to get these projects done. But it seemed like a never ending amount of work.

Plus she still wanted to run and work out and all that good stuff. She would not give up the one thing that always gave her solace. That always made her feel good about herself. Her way to escape all her other problems. She needed to run at least 45 minutes every day. She still had that passion to her, she hadn’t lost it all.

However, this week was just drowning her. She needed help, she needed to feel better. She could not and would not go on like this.

Her body was starting to break down, piece by piece. So she went to the doctor to find out what and why this was happening again. And of course she got the same, ‘Seasonal Effective Disorder,’ or depression.

She got a note to drop a few classes but, still try and continue working and doing 3 instead for 6.

That was Kaleigh’s first attempt to improve her unavoidable nightmares and fears of failing.

Failing herself, failing her partners, failing her family. She had this feeling of  never  “good enough.”

She was used to never quitting.

After about another week she felt a little better however, more exams came and she could not put that feeling of failure and not completing her other classes aside and it eventually consumed her to the point she had to drop out totally.

She still worked as she felt like if she quit that she wouldn’t be a complete ‘Loser.’ And she would never forgive herself.

She finished projects and handed them in to her partners but was not graded. Because she couldn’t not finish something. It just would never sit well with her.

So as the next few weeks went by she wrapped up all her ties with University the best she could.

She gave all her remaining assignments to her partners to present as she couldn’t be at the school. She didn’t feel good about any of this but, it seemed like her only option. She could NOT, not do anything. She had to help a little bit.

This was yet another winter. Another time she was going to sit and be quiet. thXL77I8G1 ae4851253e2c6ce8abe6bce392487964

She was going to do what she was told.

She was a puppet once again

And so the winter and all its sadness and depression came. And Kaleigh sat, listened, watched, read, was “QUIET” once again.

Until the noise came back. Until she was able to :breath again. Until her beautiful mind threatened to explode and break free once again.

And the winter semester at school started. And Kaleigh enrolled again…

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To be Continued ( Chapter.7 to come( (No title yet ) ha-ha Enjoy readers: 12345

Until Next Time,

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Dori<3

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About dori5011

Hello Everyone, My name is Dori and I am 28 years old. I have 3 wonderful sisters, one older, one younger, and a twin sister. I have 2 amazing parents. I also have an amazing boyfriend. Who will one day be my husband. We enjoy activities such as running, hiking, snowboarding, skiing, biking, fishing, golfing, soccer and many more. I love sports and am very athletic. Some of my favourite sports to play now are: Soccer, Golf, Snowboarding (soon to enjoy) I love to read, write, and learn. Hence why I have decided to join a blog. I am a restaurant manager/ server at a golf course ive worked at for 4 seasons now and I love it:) I will write more as I go on this site. But that is just a little bit about myself. Look forward to reading, learning, and writing as well as anything else this site has to offer :) Love, Dori
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